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Ronan. I have a question about dreaming. The mechanics of it.

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not sure i can answer it but go on

[photophobic]

If someone is already dreaming. If you enter the dream, what happens.

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you take control of the dream

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Too many pronouns.

If you, specifically you, Ronan. If you enter a dream. Not mine. What happens to you. This you.

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i stop being

i'm just a mechanism

there's a part that still knows what i used to be and what i wanted but the dreamer controls everything including how much of me is left

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[ Hopefully, Ronan can't feel the panic that swells through him in response. ]

And you can't get out?

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i can't do anything

there's no me

[photophobic]

Until the dreamer wakes up, and you're released.

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yes

what's going on

[photophobic]

[ There is... a lot of typing and deleting, until finally: ]

I don't know. It's something like a dream might be. Somebody else's dream. I'm still me, but he controls the story.

I don't want you coming after me and becoming part of it.

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it's not a dream if you're reaching me like this

i won't become a part of it

i'll become a part of you

[photophobic]

How can you be certain. I'm not in control, Ronan. I lost the Force. When it suited the story, I lost it. How can you know it can't take you.

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you've felt the difference between me and the force

you know

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The Force doesn't belong to me, but my ability to sense it does.
Do you belong to me more than my sight?

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i am your sight

your thoughts, your heart, your blood

when i'm in you, i'm everything in you

there's no separation between us

[photophobic]

You are making it very difficult to remember why it might be important to keep your abilities out of the reach of this powerful psychic entity, Ronan.

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i'm coming for you

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I will be furious with you if you're wrong about this. If he takes you.

[ But he won't even try to forbid him. How could he, when all he wanted for so long, for all those years, was for someone to do exactly this? ]

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if he manages to take me, i was worthless garbage all along

[Ronan isn't worried about it, though. The risk of going to Kylo is nothing when compared to the risk of not. Ronan would never abandon him, not for anything, and certainly not to spare the small cost of his own life.]

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[ Ronan likely means those words in the context of his own strength, his own ability to resist any interference- which already has a heated argument brewing under Kylo's skin- but Kylo reads a challenge there, too.

If Ronan truly is as precious to him as he professes, surely his will to possess him will be more than strong enough to keep him where he belongs. ]

I dare you to try and find anything within me that wouldn't tear this world apart to prove those words a lie.