This shouldn't be what he wants. But if God loved him half as much as Kylo Ren does, maybe he'd be strong enough to resist the temptation.

God doesn't love Ronan Lynch. He has been silent for as long as Ronan has listened for Him, abandoning him with his questions and his loneliness. If God isn't his creator, nor his guide, nor his peer... would Heaven even want Ronan? What could he even find there, if not love or answers?

Ronan savors the kiss, grateful beyond words, and when it breaks, his breath trembles. Though God has never heard Ronan before, all this whispered heresy is terrifying. It's such an awful comfort, too. He doesn't doubt that Kylo would - that he could - fight Heaven and Hell for him. This isn't a promise spoken metaphor or poetry. Kylo will surrender him to nothing in the universe.

"That's what I want," he confirms, his voice hushed. "Keep me. I'll always choose you."