[Ronan accepts the joint a little too eagerly, taking another hit. It has the weird effect of making his heart beat faster while easing some of the anxiety out of that feeling, leaving him with the sensation of butterflies in his chest.
Noah knows. Undoubtedly.]
I just...
[Rolling onto his side, Ronan props himself up on one elbow so he can look down at Noah's face. It's still strange to look at him and see him completely, without all the mental confusion that used to accompany the illusion that was his ghost body. Sometimes Ronan's scared he'll blink and find Noah lifeless again. The revelation was terrible enough the first time. They buried him. They fucking buried him. He was never really there.
Ronan bows down and presses his forehead against Noah's shoulder.]
I'm gonna fuck this up again.
[He doesn't even remember what happened when he was here before. He just knows he's bound to mess it up.]
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Noah knows. Undoubtedly.]
I just...
[Rolling onto his side, Ronan props himself up on one elbow so he can look down at Noah's face. It's still strange to look at him and see him completely, without all the mental confusion that used to accompany the illusion that was his ghost body. Sometimes Ronan's scared he'll blink and find Noah lifeless again. The revelation was terrible enough the first time. They buried him. They fucking buried him. He was never really there.
Ronan bows down and presses his forehead against Noah's shoulder.]
I'm gonna fuck this up again.
[He doesn't even remember what happened when he was here before. He just knows he's bound to mess it up.]