[Blue doesn't disgust Ronan. She is, in fact, the most pleasant female he's ever encountered who wasn't his mother. In terms of personality, he might have more in common with her than anyone else in the house. If he were for some reason actually forced to date a girl, he'd date Blue Sargent. But he doesn't feel what everyone else seems to feel about her. He's spent much of the past few weeks staring at her in an attempt to find something appealing in her body. But her hair looks stupid. She's too small. Her clothes are absolutely horrible. And though her legs can look nice from certain angles, when he thinks about what's between them, he feels a wave of quiet panic.
He knows none of them expect him to be into her. But before, they were with each other's partners. Frequently. In a few cases, all at the same time. When he thinks about a situation like that erupting between two or three of them with Blue, he's afraid he won't be able to stomach it. And weirdly, he's more afraid of how she'd feel if that happened than his own humiliation.
It's easier for everyone if they avoid the situation entirely. Especially if they're going to keep asking him how he feels about it and getting disappointed when he reacts with anything but enthusiasm.]
What I want is for everything to go back to how it used to be.
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He knows none of them expect him to be into her. But before, they were with each other's partners. Frequently. In a few cases, all at the same time. When he thinks about a situation like that erupting between two or three of them with Blue, he's afraid he won't be able to stomach it. And weirdly, he's more afraid of how she'd feel if that happened than his own humiliation.
It's easier for everyone if they avoid the situation entirely. Especially if they're going to keep asking him how he feels about it and getting disappointed when he reacts with anything but enthusiasm.]
What I want is for everything to go back to how it used to be.